suck this clit.: The Hardest Part...
The past three days have been the most devestating. Waking up at three in the morning, crying until my alarm goes off. Going to school with a smile, crying when no one’s looking. Then, I have to go on stage and pretend like nothing’s wrong? That’s definitely the hardest part. Yeah, I smile and…
Monday April 9, 2012 10:38 PM
My bridge over troubled water, my partner, my other half, my nigga, my love. You and I have been through it all. I love you, and you know that. We’ve overcome so much the past 8 1/2 months, it’s unbelievable. I dare any other couple to walk in our shoes and try to endure what we have already endured. Through hell and high water we always found a way back to each other. The distance between us is a blessing and a curse. A curse in a sense that there is a long period of time where I miss a kiss, a hug, a smile, a laugh. During that period of time, I am not able to tell you how much I love you to your face. However, it is a blessing in a sense that, every moment we share is cherished. We don’t see each other often. Every kiss, every hug, every smile, every laugh- is cherished. Most couples may get bored of seeing their partner every single day, but those rare times we see each other, it’s a blessed experience and I would never trade it for the world. Home is where the heart is, and I’ve found that in you. Just lying down with you in your room is enough joy for me. Enough to last me until the next time I’m able to see you again. Those two hour drives? Worth every second. Worth sitting in traffic for. Worth paying the toll. Because I know that as long as the drive is over, you and I will be reunited. I’m at home with you. And that’s all I ever wanted. I love you, Chase. Thank you for putting up with all of my mood swings, crazy behavior, weird attitudes and everything in between. Until next time, homie/lover/friend.
Aww look how happy I wasThe shirt I bought x Fullout Clothing.
Music is the heart of dance.
But it’s gangster. Because the ‘n’ in dance is a music note.
See what they did there?
Even better… It came with a free water bottle.
Day 006: January 6, 2012
This day was too amazing. I know that I missed a lot of days.. and they were pretty damn eventful days too.. But this day was way too good to skip. This was the day that Prince asked me out. Yeah, we only knew each other for a week.. but, why wait any longer if we’re already so good? In Drake’s words, “the good ones go if you wait too long.” I’m actually surprised he asked me out. I haven’t been in a relationship in so long. We went all over the city! I took him to Twin Peaks for the first time, I took him to Crissy Fields for the first time, AND the Golden Gate Bridge. Not all in the same day, but over the past week.. maybe that’s why I haven’t been able to update as consistently as I should? Let’s just say this kid needs to go out more -___- there’s a lot of firsts in this relationship and I hope that it can last for a while because I’m really liking this dude..
Day 002: January 2, 2012
Me and work have a love-hate relationship. Some days I dread it, some days I look forward to it. I really wanted to call in sick today, but I couldn’t find anyone to take my shift.. so my ass was off to work. I wasn’t really sick, I just wanted to be with my mom since it was her first day off in a few weeks. Woman works hard! But, I couldn’t get off.. so I wasn’t going to see her today :/ but she took me out for burritos! So, that was cool. Good thing Jasmine was working today, or I’d definitely have to have a bitch fit. I feel like a lot of my posts are going to be work related.. today was so uneventful. Nothing really happened. I wish I had seen my prince charming though :’( but anywaaays. Managers were actually really chill today, and it was pretty slow. Slower than I thought it would be.
BUT AYE! I fuckin hate rude ass customers. Like, uhh.. you see me fixing this rack, yo’ass drops hellla clothes on the floor, looks at it, and walks away. UHHH, WANT ME TO WIPE YOUR ASS WHILE YOU AT IT? Shit, y’all grown folk. Don’t act like no four year old. Ouu, yo’asses lucky I ain’t trynna get fired..
#np - you say that you over me, you always end up under me..
Day 001: January 1, 2012
This is how I spent the first day of the new year. This picture wasn’t actually taken on this day (it was actually the day before.) But do you see that boy? That boy right there? The one I’m holding hands with? He’s how I spent my new year. We just met recently, but we hit it off so quickly. I don’t know where this is going to go, but I’m hoping that it does go somewhere. I remember how we met. I was bold enough to approach him. I never make the first move, but I did. And I’m glad I did. We’ve hung out every day since then. I wouldn’t have this guy to make me smile. I wouldn’t have this guy that would keep my mind off of Chase. No, he’s not here just so I can move on. But I do like him. Yeah, I have feelings for Chase. I even cried while I drove home this night because of the immense pain I feel when I think of him. But this guy is helping me out a whole lot. He has his past too. He said it wasn’t just a coincidence that we met. He had some whole spiel about how this might actually be the beginning of something important.
I know you’ve been hurt by someone else, I could tell by the way, you carry yourself.. but if you let me, here’s what I’ll do, I’ll take care of you.
Happy new years to me!
Dear Chase, if you see this.. I love you. We still have a whole year ahead of us. If we’re single when we’re thirty, we’re getting married. Yeah? K cool. You promised me..
I’m A Day Late..
But I’ll post about my day yesterday, and my day today when I get home from work. Yeah? K. Cool.
